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Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: cerealbox on May 22, 2012, 11:04 am
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Decided to try to m-hole as a treat to my myself since I just got some MXE and hadn't had some in a long time. I waited until after my bedtime and took some and then m-holed. Then my cat wanted in my room. My brother noticed this and knocked on me door to let me know. Not hearing a response they picked my lock and found me unresponsive to their attempts to wake me up. Then the cops and ambulance were called and I lost about 1.5 oz of mushrooms, nearly an ounce of weed left, a gram of mxe and all of my booze was destroyed for some reason (I have crazy parents). So supposedly my mother had to give me mouth to mouth (my mom's a little crazy and I'm not sure she needed to) although I remember talking to the ambulance people thinking they were a crazy hallucination. Anyway, now I have a 'meeting' with the cops sometime this afternoon. FML.
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ROFL...
Pffft... tsk tsk... kids eh?!!!
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Been there done that :D
After my first month of madness with MXE I'd gone as far as 150mg and while it was a bizarre experience I was still in control. Cranking it up to 200mg was a *bad* idea. My parents thought I'd suffered some sort of psychotic break and took me to hospital, kicking and screaming. I remember thinking I was trapped in a mental institution forever. My whole life had been a sham, a fantasy, I'd never been outside the walls of the institution. The person I'd considered my mother all this time? Just a nurse (she was in fact my mother, I was just totally fucked). I had to escape. I tried removing the ceiling vent and going through there. Eventually I overpowered the 'nurse' and opened the door and got out onto the ward; there were big burly men at either end of the corridor. I sensed something was wrong and went back into the room. I later learned that they'd locked down the ward because of me and were seconds away from giving me an asskicking I would never forget.
It took me about 24 hours to learn to walk properly again. I also have a bizarre recollection of the hospital being underground, even though it definitely wasn't.
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Cerealbox, you are on a fucked up trajectory, stop the drugs for a while, try meditation.
For your own sake, if that isn't important enough, for your family's sake.
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Cereal you are one crazy mother fucker. Kudos for panache of it all though! If you gunna do it, do it in style with the police and paramedics rushing into the room.
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Been there myself so I registered to give you the advice I wish somebody gave me.
I ended up in hospital a few years back, more or less indifferent to staying alive and unable to walk.. I was shitting myself and pissing myself and basically insane, ranting and raving, I fucked up every single aspect of my life in a few years. It was the most undignified humbling experience of my life. I was extremely lucky to be alive tho, I later learned a few more days 'under the clouds' would have been it. I was becoming paralyzed from the toes upwards, and it had started to reach my chest (the numbness/weakness) - so a few more days and no more breathing..
This all could have been avoided if I had learned to Meditate.
http://what-buddha-taught.net/Books/Ajahn_Brahm_Basic_Method_of_Meditation.htm
This practice has saved my life. Meditation has given my mind a refuge, removing the need for drugs and bringing happiness and calmness to all areas of my life. I cannot recommend this enough.
The first time I achieved 'a really nice meditation', I would say it was like natural free heroin but better. And yes, I have done a lot of it so I can say that.
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Been there myself so I registered to give you the advice I wish somebody gave me.
I ended up in hospital a few years back, more or less indifferent to staying alive and unable to walk.. I was shitting myself and pissing myself and basically insane, ranting and raving, I fucked up every single aspect of my life in a few years. It was the most undignified humbling experience of my life. I was extremely lucky to be alive tho, I later learned a few more days 'under the clouds' would have been it. I was becoming paralyzed from the toes upwards, and it had started to reach my chest (the numbness/weakness) - so a few more days and no more breathing..
This all could have been avoided if I had learned to Meditate.
http://what-buddha-taught.net/Books/Ajahn_Brahm_Basic_Method_of_Meditation.htm
This practice has saved my life. Meditation has given my mind a refuge, removing the need for drugs and bringing happiness and calmness to all areas of my life. I cannot recommend this enough.
The first time I achieved 'a really nice meditation', I would say it was like natural free heroin but better. And yes, I have done a lot of it so I can say that.
The "need for drugs" is a misinterpretation on your part. Don't regard psychonauts as drug addicts. You won't make any friends on here with that attitude.
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The "need for drugs" is a misinterpretation on your part. Don't regard psychonauts as drug addicts. You won't make any friends on here with that attitude.
Quite right, I was referring specifically to drugs of addiction there.
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If you want to take a similar journey which is kinder on the body, meditation is the way forward..
You can reach similarly awesome states :)
I guess maybe people did tell me this in the past, but I did not believe it..
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If you want to take a similar journey which is kinder on the body, meditation is the way forward..
You can reach similarly awesome states :)
I guess maybe people did tell me this in the past, but I did not believe it..
Meditation is alright but lucid dreaming and out-of-body experiences are the shit! ;D
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Meditation is alright but lucid dreaming and out-of-body experiences are the shit! ;D
Strongly agree!
I was shocked and amazed when I first started to discover for myself, that it is possible to reach those states without any drug assistance. Why had nobody told me this was accessible all along? Free inside my own mind, with no side-effects..
I think it's great to experiment with all mind-expanding substances, I believe they can take your hand and 'show you the way'. They can be a short-cut to these profound states.
But once you have truly been around the block, you have done them all to excess many times, you are old and such an experience is draining, then you must use your own mind to create the conditions for profound states of being.
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Meditation?
I'm skeptical.
I don't understand how sitting quietly and clearing your mind can get you high. Placebo?
I tried meditating seriously in my teens. Sat for a half hour at times. Didn't really feel anything.
Is there a physical explanation for the effects you guys feel? Some way of thinking that causes your brain to release endorphins?
I just don't get it.
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Meditation?
I'm skeptical.
I don't understand how sitting quietly and clearing your mind can get you high. Placebo?
I tried meditating seriously in my teens. Sat for a half hour at times. Didn't really feel anything.
Is there a physical explanation for the effects you guys feel? Some way of thinking that causes your brain to release endorphins?
I just don't get it.
Well, after "clearing your mind", you can do much more.
I've successfully used to extract exact memories from my brain, have OOB experiences/visuals, and even healed from 6 months of speed abuse. You know all those holes that they show in the EEG graphs? They all healed, just because of meditation. Don't knock it till you try it brother, it's a life-changer.
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Meditation?
I'm skeptical.
I don't understand how sitting quietly and clearing your mind can get you high. Placebo?
I tried meditating seriously in my teens. Sat for a half hour at times. Didn't really feel anything.
Is there a physical explanation for the effects you guys feel? Some way of thinking that causes your brain to release endorphins?
I just don't get it.
Well, after "clearing your mind", you can do much more.
I've successfully used to extract exact memories from my brain, have OOB experiences/visuals, and even healed from 6 months of speed abuse. You know all those holes that they show in the EEG graphs? They all healed, just because of meditation. Don't knock it till you try it brother, it's a life-changer.
That's what I'm saying, I have tried it. But my attention span only allowed to go for a half hour. Maybe I did something wrong?
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Keep at it, but try some different explanations for 'how to meditate'. There are many different ways, you just have to find the right method for yourself.
This one worked for me for some reason: http://what-buddha-taught.net/Books/Ajahn_Brahm_Basic_Method_of_Meditation.htm
I had the same experience tho, for years I would 'meditate' but never really get anywhere.. Sure it was slightly relaxing but that was it. When people told me 'it was as good as drugs' I thought they were ignorant and didn't have access to proper drugs. They were fucking right, it's better, it's one of the reasons I loved drugs so much - for their ability to shortcut my way to these profound states.
One time I got the technique right, finally, and experienced such a release and state of pure bliss - I knew I had touched on something big, so I kept at it, practicing and reading the talks monks give at meditation retreats.
That book gives an excellent description on how to reach the first stages in Meditation, even these first stages are very blissful and profound. Don't give up :)
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Dude, you made out with your mom. :-*
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Meditation?
I'm skeptical.
I don't understand how sitting quietly and clearing your mind can get you high. Placebo?
I tried meditating seriously in my teens. Sat for a half hour at times. Didn't really feel anything.
Is there a physical explanation for the effects you guys feel? Some way of thinking that causes your brain to release endorphins?
I just don't get it.
Well, after "clearing your mind", you can do much more.
I've successfully used to extract exact memories from my brain, have OOB experiences/visuals, and even healed from 6 months of speed abuse. You know all those holes that they show in the EEG graphs? They all healed, just because of meditation. Don't knock it till you try it brother, it's a life-changer.
That's what I'm saying, I have tried it. But my attention span only allowed to go for a half hour. Maybe I did something wrong?
It's sorta like working out, but for your brain. Got that half-hour down? Good, now perfect it so your mind is literally akin to the condition of non-existence except focusing on breathing. It considerably increases your attention span too!
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Bedtime? Man you sure you should be on here? Be safe! You should probably have a sitter or at least someone knowing what you're doing/the effects before you lock yourself in your room and trip again.
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Well it's not the first time pussy is gonna fuck things up for you mate
Just play it cool, go along with what your parents say, act sorry, don't take anything for a while.. and don't give anything away. Calm down for a bit and start taking shit again in a while, but be smarter.
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Well it's not the first time pussy is gonna fuck things up for you mate
Just play it cool, go along with what your parents say, act sorry, don't take anything for a while.. and don't give anything away. Calm down for a bit and start taking shit again in a while, but be smarter.
Can't agree more! It's pure bliss when you leave home. My Mum's saying was 'If you pay the bills you make the rules'
So keep your Mum sweet and do drugs you can control more. Sounds like an eventful time though - I'd have been kicked out for a stunt like that.
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You know you put your parents at risk by receiving drugs at your home ?? I hope you learn a lesson from this .. This arrived to a friend once, he absorbed a double-dose of GHB and he wiped out in the stairs of the videoclub and he woke up at the hospital..
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You know you put your parents at risk by receiving drugs at your home ?? I hope you learn a lesson from this .. This arrived to a friend once, he absorbed a double-dose of GHB and he wiped out in the stairs of the videoclub and he woke up at the hospital..
I agree... Fortunately I live alone - but if SR had been around 3 years ago I probably would've done the same thing as this guys doing... so I won't comment too much.
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Cereal you are one crazy mother fucker. Kudos for panache of it all though! If you gunna do it, do it in style with the police and paramedics rushing into the room.
A class act all the way!
V.
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Cereal you are one crazy mother fucker. Kudos for panache of it all though! If you gunna do it, do it in style with the police and paramedics rushing into the room.
A class act all the way!
V.
I'd love to go to the emergency room whilst I'm of my bollocks... imagine describing your thoughts to a psychiatrist... I think they'd make you room in a padded cell lmao.
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My sympathies bro. I know that sucks. I would agree with what everyone else is saying: Chill out for a while, and stay clean. Apologize profusely to your parents and family, and be the 'good little recovered son'. Maybe even start saving cash, you have a job? Get a place, and then do whatever the fuck you want.
See if you can find some cool people to room with, and cut the costs of living by thirds.
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how come no one else in this thread has said DONT TALK TO THE FUCKING COPS?
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Wait.... Why do I just now realize this kid sounds underage. He gets busted for shrooms, MXE, weed, and his mom takes his alcohol, and then he comes home to post about it on the forums.
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Wait.... Why do I just now realize this kid sounds underage. He gets busted for shrooms, MXE, weed, and his mom takes his alcohol, and then he comes home to post about it on the forums.
I mean he made out with his own mom so at least he get's SOME cool points.
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Wait.... Why do I just now realize this kid sounds underage. He gets busted for shrooms, MXE, weed, and his mom takes his alcohol, and then he comes home to post about it on the forums.
I mean he made out with his own mom so at least he get's SOME cool points.
LOL. I didn't take notice of his age until someone mentioned it. I was too busy imagining what it must have been like for him... I've done MXE and its pretty potent.
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All I'm saying is, if he's in the States, which I assume he is, above the age of 16 you're tried as an adult... Unless he's awaiting legal action, he's under 16... Scary thought
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All I'm saying is, if he's in the States, which I assume he is, above the age of 16 you're tried as an adult... Unless he's awaiting legal action, he's under 16... Scary thought
I don't want to jump to conclusions here... but if he is under 16 then I sincerely hope hes learned his lesson. Like I've said in other posts, the media would love for a kid to die from the drugs on here.
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@Sollemnis: Gratz on breaking 100 posts. :P
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Cheers mate, I'm actually pretty pleased with myself 8) But yeah I wasn't saying he took an OD, MXE is intense... I've never tried K but MXE blew my head off. I just think the setting wasn't right, I've never tried to act normal on MXE but I reckon it would be a challenge.
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maybe im wrong, but following another thread from CB, (you can search if you want) he mentioned his bday with age, and its 21+
best luck CB, seems your going through quite a rough patch.
I'm unsure, that's why I said I don't want to jump to conclusions. Besides, age doesn't matter to me... We all share the same interest... Who cares how old someone is we're all in the same boat here.
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Agreed. I don't mean to negatively judge. There is just something in the back of my head that finds it strange and a little bad when kids under the age of 18 do drugs. Perhaps that's just me and my weird morals though.
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Agreed. I don't mean to negatively judge. There is just something in the back of my head that finds it strange and a little bad when kids under the age of 18 do drugs. Perhaps that's just me and my weird morals though.
Welcome to America. Where kids always do drugs before 18 or usually not at all.
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Agreed. I don't mean to negatively judge. There is just something in the back of my head that finds it strange and a little bad when kids under the age of 18 do drugs. Perhaps that's just me and my weird morals though.
Welcome to America. Where kids always do drugs before 18 or usually not at all.
Same for Britain. I'm guilty of this myself... as long as you know what you're doing, age isn't a major concern.
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Don't tell them you got your stuff from this site...
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damn man, sorry to hear that. i've taken some large 200+ doses of it, but never with that result. good luck with the cops. hope all goes well for ya man, i'll burn a candle and send some good juju your way.
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I have mixed feelings about this issue.
When I was a minor, I did copious amounts of drugs. So I'd be a hypocrite to judge. God what a field day I'd have had with access to this site when I was in high school.
And I think if the dude is smart enough to find this site (I know, it's not THAT big of an achievement... but most adults, let alone kids his age, still wouldn't be able to figure it out, even with the browser bundle, and gawker staring at them), then I think he's capable of deciding what drugs he wants to do, especially considering some of the people who legally have access to alcohol.
On the other hand the guy may deserve to do his drugs and perfectly capable of deciding whether or not he wants to scare the fuck out of his parents like that, but some parental figures I've observed in other people's lives can be just ridiculously overprotective, and ready to justify the actions of their perfect-crotchfruit-which-can-do-no-harm by blaming them on anything they can, us included. So this is worrisome.
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If it's any consolation cereal, I'm sure many of us would perform mouth to mouth resuscitation with your mum. So don't feel too embarrassed, glad to hear you're at least alive in all seriousness. ;)
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Don't tell them you got your stuff from this site...
mxe is still legal in the u.s. it was just put on a temporary ban in the u.k. a month ago. why would he.have to mention this site, when he could have easily got it from the clearnet??
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If it's any consolation cereal, I'm sure many of us would perform mouth to mouth resuscitation with your mum. So don't feel too embarrassed, glad to hear you're at least alive in all seriousness. ;)
Hahahahahaha
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I take back my earlier comment on his age. I now recall seeing a post a few days ago mentioning him being older.
Anyway, I wish you all the luck in the world, and I hope you get back to whatever can be considered a normal life soon.
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Thanks for the support and comments everyone. Yeah, no more drugs and alcohol for quite a bit. Everyone's talking about my "disease" and such now. It's very odd.
The charges are fairly serious it looks like because of the shrooms. My lawyer said he'd try to get me out of jail, but that I'm looking at serious probation, community service and a hefty fine if I'm lucky. I've gotta go in there with a game plan about how I'm going to turn my life around. Got processed and everything, the cops were friendly enough. Very curious and sort of blown away by what this MXE thing was. My doctor was much more nonchalant about it though. Told me "don't take such large doses of xme or whatever you took next time." So I fucked up my life pretty good for a little while.
BTW, I'm not under-aged, just a loser basement-dweller.
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You should have worked your way up to the hole, I have done prolly 400 mgs in a night starting small and working my way up till i had done.......to much. I like the feeling of layingh in my bed and feeling like Im on a giant cloud, My girlfriend was beside me but was somehow......SO FAR AWAY!! I also somehow thought I had lived in a movie and had experienced it first hand instead of just watching it. Also I tend to hear electricity. its all pretty fun to me very euphoric.
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You should have worked your way up to the hole, I have done prolly 400 mgs in a night starting small and working my way up till i had done.......to much. I like the feeling of layingh in my bed and feeling like Im on a giant cloud, My girlfriend was beside me but was somehow......SO FAR AWAY!! I also somehow thought I had lived in a movie and had experienced it first hand instead of just watching it. Also I tend to hear electricity. its all pretty fun to me very euphoric.
Damn, I can't wait to try that stuff :D
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Thanks for the support and comments everyone. Yeah, no more drugs and alcohol for quite a bit. Everyone's talking about my "disease" and such now. It's very odd.
The charges are fairly serious it looks like because of the shrooms. My lawyer said he'd try to get me out of jail, but that I'm looking at serious probation, community service and a hefty fine if I'm lucky. I've gotta go in there with a game plan about how I'm going to turn my life around. Got processed and everything, the cops were friendly enough. Very curious and sort of blown away by what this MXE thing was. My doctor was much more nonchalant about it though. Told me "don't take such large doses of xme or whatever you took next time." So I fucked up my life pretty good for a little while.
BTW, I'm not under-aged, just a loser basement-dweller.
So you told the cops what the drug was? Glad you picked up on a thing or two around here.
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how come no one else in this thread has said DONT TALK TO THE FUCKING COPS?
You realize he was on a massive amount of MXE and didn't even believe half the shit he was seeing was real right?
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how come no one else in this thread has said DONT TALK TO THE FUCKING COPS?
You realize he was on a massive amount of MXE and didn't even believe half the shit he was seeing was real right?
You realize he didn't talk to the cops til the day after the hospital right?
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OP, how many mg did you do?
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how come no one else in this thread has said DONT TALK TO THE FUCKING COPS?
You realize he was on a massive amount of MXE and didn't even believe half the shit he was seeing was real right?
did you not even read the original post, that specifically mentioned a PLANNED MEETING with the police before he had gone to said meeting? jesus fuck at least read the original post of the thread you're replying to!