Quote from: jackherer1975 on August 01, 2013, 06:49 pmit really annoys me when i read something and have absolutely no idea what it means, I'm too curios and end up researching things online for no other reason then I HAVE to understand...I spent a year studying poker and almost as soon as i felt i really understood the game and could win consistently i lost interest in playing.it's all about the journey of discovery and not so much where i end up.its a curse ;)Amen. I'm not really sure what I'd do with my time if not for the pursuit of understanding though... it saved me from suicide, in the end. Well, the quest for understanding paired with amphetamine abuse saved me from suicide, to be totally frank... there's nothing like amphetamine to keep you focused & distracted :P But the curse is the only reason I have any clue wtf this thread is even about. Still, it is kind of aggravating...I'm obsessed with the horizon and don't seem to care that it's forever beyond reach. I think it's fair to call it a curse when the goal isn't even something that's possible to achieve: there's always something more that you don't understand, isn't there... oh well. Gotta try anyway :)... wtf is my problem, getting all maudlin in the midst of geeky-cool techno-crypto time. Pardon me, I think I may need another dose :P