Quote from: tedrux on July 12, 2013, 05:49 amI need to :complete therapy /become a healthy normal personget a job save for collegego to collegestart a careeridk how realistic any of that is and the problem is even if I become a contributing member of society that doesn't make me morally good. marry will never approve of me no matter what I do. she is in a catagory of people who all feel that way. like if there is a heaven I cant get there. like there is no redeeming myself. so when I ask: so you have a problem with me why dont you identify what the problem is and how to solve it? , all they have to say is : there is no solution just get away from me, thats MY soulution, your fucked but I cant be bothered to care.what is the source of my motivation and how does a bad person become a good person. idkYou're not a bad person man. Don't ever let anyone make you believe that. If you really want to fit in and not be isolated, just study what people say. Try to predict their reactions to certain statements or questions or situations. Then mimic them.I don't recommend it, and I believe it's a waste of your time... but if you truly want to just not be ostracized... pretend, man. Just pretend to be one of them. And never, ever, ever let any of them know you're just pretending. If they ever find out, they're gone. Forever. Again... I think it's a waste of your time and you'd be better off being yourself, but... being alone hurts. I know that. And it hurts less if you have someone to talk to while you're alone. But make no mistake: being one of them will still leave you feeling alone.I'm not one of them either, man. I don't know what to tell you. Just try to smile I guess. I dunno... I mean what else ya gonna do but chit chat & take drugs & cruise around some fucking forums all the time, right? Sound like anybody you know...? ;)