There's something I've gotten lately that fucking terrified me at first. It comes and goes now. I thought it was a sign that my health was declining much faster than I thought, and while that may still be true, apparently this particular thing is nothing to worry about. Or at least, nobody knows it to be a Very Bad Thing yet. Some people get them without medication or drug use of any kind, apparently.People like to call them "brain zaps." Maybe you all know about it. I certainly didn't. It's strongly associated with substance withdrawal, particularly the SSRI medications. It's not just withdrawal that does it though, and those certainly had nothing to do with me. For me it happens... well, it happens all the time now, both during use and during withdrawal. It initially was only during heavy use. Goes away for a week or two, then comes back. Weird stuff.Google it or something some time if you get flashes of... I don't know, hard to describe. Intense dizziness for just a second, that's associated with something like a chill running through you. It was really terrifying at first, I mean I think my entire body twitches and for a split second I get an intense sense of panic as though I just accidentally stepped off a cliff but didn't look down until that moment; the first time it happened I thought I had overdosed and was about to go into seizures and never wake up.There's no known scientific explanation for them that I'm aware of; there's a lot of theories and things that apparently are associated with them, but nobody has any idea what the causal mechanism really is (that I can find). They seem to be strongly associated with serotonin downregulation, and possibly GABA downregulation and NMDA upregulation. Take it with a grain of salt though, I have nothing to cite but random internet searches.Anyway, if it starts happening to you people or is happening, don't be like me and get all scared for a few months: we'll probably end up with dementia sooner than most people, some think, but c'mon... how many of us are really going to be alive at that age eating western food *and* taking all these drugs? Just one of those is enough to finish off most people... ::)While I'm on the topic, apparently some new numbers suggest that it isn't about 10-20% of people who experience sexual dysfunction on SSRI meds. It may be as high as fucking 60%, if Wikipedia and its source are to be believed. Lexapro is the least harmful one it seems, but they can all cause long term withdrawal syndrome. There's apparently cases of it lasting years or indefinitely. Those SSRIs really are fucking questionable...