I have taken a dozen antidepressents. I have tried half a dozen psychedelics. I have tried being a womanizer. I have tried being a drug addict. I have tried being healthy. I have tried being a shut-in. I have tried killing myself (and failed, obviously).Nothing really works. There still remains this seeping void of empty meaninglessness at the core of me. I've accepted that I will die unhappy. How do I cope? I do anything it takes to forget for awhile. Then I do it again. And I don't stop.Unless you truly are on the verge of killing yourself, I don't recommend it. It's a terrible lifestyle, and I'm amazed I've lasted this long. But if you really would rather be dead... well. At least now I smile a lot, even if I'm not happy. Some people's brains just didn't develop right. What can you do.Exercise helps though. Really, aerobic exercise and strength training are surprisingly effective.