It blows my mind that even self professed addicts don't seem to understand the tricky part of addiction: it isn't the physical withdrawal (though granted, dope withdrawal is fucking crazy -- but still only a temporary circumstance that's over if you get through it).It isn't even the "need" to get high that does everybody in. It's the fucking "want" to get high. The constant, nagging, screaming desire to go back to the place you miss so badly. It's the fact that you don't, and never will, want to stop. That's what makes it so hard: you will never, ever want to stop. Mind over body isn't good enough. Will power can't sustain you the rest of your natural life if you're hooked badly. You'll give in eventually. Everyone does. Why do you think AA/NA work for people? Because it gives them reassurance that not using is the right thing. It gives them an atmosphere full of people who don't use and who say you shouldn't, and who are basically okay being clean. People feed off each other. We're social animals.NA doesn't help because it somehow magically enhances your willpower. It isn't voodoo; people don't relapse again and again and again because they have momentary slips and their willpower fails them "just that once." It's because willpower, for almost every one, isn't enough. If you're counting on will power to break your addiction, I'm sorry, but IMHO: you are totally fucked. Find another way, because if you don't, you'll die an addict & still using.Yes, I am an addict, and I do not recommend this lifestyle. I've never traded my dignity for gear or betrayed a friend and I certainly don't think I ever will, but I'm still an addict and I mean it when I say I sincerely don't recommend this lifestyle.You have to be pretty fucking broken for something like regular meth use to fix you more than it ruins you. And eventually it will ruin you. You're trading a lot of time away for the brief distraction, and it's a heavy price to pay. No one can ever give you the time back; it's gone, no matter what you do. If you're already so broken you don't care, well... I'm sorry. That really sucks. I hope you enjoy your meth. But seriously, wtf are you telling this story for?Fuck the rest of the world. Fuck their judgments. Fuck their laws and bullshit lies. If you want meth, do meth. But don't be dishonest about it. That's just... ugly, and insincere. You're trading most of your life to try and enjoy a little of it. Is that really worthwhile for you?God I hate to see people lie to themselves. Yeah, I guess that's my ultimate point. I don't like seeing this kind of thing. Stop putting it in front of me to read about. God damn it, you just fucking suck, that's all there is to it!I've had quite enough! Good day...!(Reminder: half of what I say is basically for amusement purposes only, so... yeah. Hah-hah, and all that, lol)