Quote from: BlueGiraffe on February 20, 2013, 10:14 pmQuote from: kitkat82 on February 20, 2013, 04:28 pmI'm still alive....just very, very sick and groggy. Hard to think clearly and concentrate. I'm going to go to my Doctor today, and if I can't drive will ask my Dad if he can take me. I just don't want to be dumped in another mental hospital....I slept about 24 hours after waking up for a brief moment to let Scout know I was ok, then slept until about now. But I am physically very ill.Kitkat,There is an important perspective you need to have here, seeing as you're dabbling in death as you are...If you kill the body, then it dies, but you continue. You will still need to face and deal with everything that you are facing and dealing with now, but you will simply be un-anchored in this physical plane. You do not get relief from your suffering by that act. You just think you do, but that is not how it works.I know where you're at, I've been there - and many (maybe most) people have been there. And to take your life is actually a decision I would respect - if you do it in full clarity and consciousness of what you are doing. But if you believe that it's just kind of "lights out" and "game over" and "no more existential pain" then you're deluding yourself.That you chose to communicate what you're doing here is good, because then you can get some response. And this is one of them. So leave if you must, but know where you're going. You will remain conscious, and you will still need to deal with yourself. Better you do it here where you are among friends.Love to you.BGI hope you understand that what you've just done is told someone in so much pain they're literally debating defying thousands of years of instinct and genetic motivation to end their own life -- someone who commits suicide accomplishes something that very few end up being able to do, they go against the shrieking sounds of their own self preservation mechanisms grating through every fiber of their being trying to stop them -- and essentially you have told such a person in that much pain, that she will suffer eternally.What can I say? Masterful choice there. "Bravo."