You know... sometimes I really do think there's a lot of truth to the statement that if you have ADHD, meth does not do the same thing to you. Because that's not how it is for me. I don't think it was ever like that for me, either. I mean I love amphetamines, and honestly, yeah... I'd probably just commit to being psychotic and a useless tweaker forever if I could stay in that frame of mind 24/7 and never leave it. Fuck it, it's the best place I've ever felt. I mean a good meal with a family and all is basically just as good, but... not in the same way.Alright, I'm lying, it's not just as good. Yes, I'm a junkie who'd rather tweak than have a meal with my family (half the time, I'm not a bad person or anything and love my family). Fuck it, that's just who I am. Families are nice, but nothing's as nice as the place amphetamines have taken me or gotten me close to on those rare occasions.Goddamn wandering compulsive chattering... lol. What was I posting to say again, ugh... right, right. For me, it really does make me feel like a much more competent, in control of myself person. I sincerely believe that that's even half true and it makes me a much better individual in some ways. Other ways, the price makes me a worse person. But it's a drug, what do you expect, right. All I'm getting at is that I use for a very different reason, but apparently to the same end, sniper. Interesting.