Can I drop all pretense and ego for a minute and sincerely ask that somebody with more insight than myself share theirs with me? I mean I usually do my best not to act on pretense or ego or anything like that all day every day, but I'm as human as the next guy, ya know. Anyway, I'm getting really... "surprised" at my use lately. Is it possible to develop such a tolerance that you just plain can't inhale enough meth to get & keep your high going the way you want to?Up until about 4 months ago, I almost always took breaks of at least a day or two. Now I just get up and start all over again. For the past 4 months, give or take.Even after the better part of an hour vaping, inhaling, holding until it starts being uncomfortable, exhaling, breath, breath, repeat... I'm still not tweaked. And I'm not sure I'd *ever* get tweaked doing that. I've started eating eyeballed shards like pills every few hours while I'm vaping just because I can't stand the aggravation of it never seeming to actually do the job it's supposed to. I used to swallow it because it's less of a peak and feels more "functional," but now I just have to do it or vaping does fuck all except wake me up good & proper in the morning.... infact it almost seems to work *better* when I swallow it. I suppose if I just scorched the fuck out of a big ass shard and took it all in one inhale, I'd feel it pretty damn well that way too... but I never tried doing it with more than just a little. I hate wasting meth :( Yet it's almost as though it goes in and gets washed out so fast that my blood levels never reach that point I want them at.Like, wtf is up with that? I mean seriously, how is that even physiologically possible? I've got a specific report I keep going back to in my mind from an old board (the hive again I think) by a cook who was describing a new method he tried, and that it came out just as well -- and that he hadn't touched his pipe since he left for work 8 hours earlier, and was doing just fine, didn't need more, was feeling good. I'm almost quoting. That's outright impossible for me. Even if I swallow it, I feel it washing out 2-6 hours later and I'm on the way down from there unless I redose to prevent it. Which isn't to say it's out of my body that night or anything: sometimes I wake up the next day and I can feel that familiar amphetamine focus, and I think "well I'll be damned, I tweaked myself right into today. Cool I guess. Not really healthy, but it feels better than the alternative at least."My kidneys deserve better than me, I'm afraid... sigh.I always get really uncomfortable when I'm this open about my habit... I don't really know why. It's not like I lie to myself or anything, and none of you know who I am, so why care. Right? ... right? Guys?... hey, who's that by the window? ZOMG I IS FOUND! QUICK FLUSH THE STASH KITCHEN MOUSE WE IZ IN BAD WAYZ!!!P.S. -  Ooops. Just a bush. Now where was I... oh yes. So yeah, my tweaker mouse and I still live together, and he wonders just as much as me wtf is going on and just where it'll end too. Does this just get worse until I even can't swallow it all in one go and have to do two+ gulps...? I assumed if I didn't try to get TOO high, I'd eventually reach a "compromise wall" -- tolerance would almost be at my body's limit, and if I didn't push so hard I fry myself like an egg, voila: life as a tweaker could continue evermore, or evershortly, or wherever it went before I faced the inevitable reality of not being a fucking millionaire... But... it's not working very well anymore, and it isn't even time for it to not work yet? :(