it's not a bad thing that it didn't work --- it is a very, very good thing! however, you may really want to get to a hospital because i'm not sure of what all you've taken -- they may be able to prevent more damage to your organs if you let them help you. it doesn't mean you have to go to a mental hospital. no one wants you to kill yourself ... so i hope to God that you will get some medical help to prevent any longterm damage from happening! people need you around! people you may not have even met yet! and definitely your son! is there anything i can do? anything any of us can do for you right now? please don't continue to take stuff -- if you think your kidneys might be failing, you need to get some medical help (which, again, does not necessarily mean mental hospital).