i'll echo what i stated in my message to you, kitkat --- you have people here on an anonymous drug forum on the darknet who genuinely CARE. this itself is proof that life doesn't have to be a lonely, dark, solitary thing. is there anyone you can call to just hang out with you tonight? maybe watch some tv or movies, just keep you company and make sure you do okay while the drugs wear off? tomorrow is a brand new day, and i want you to see it.