It's okay - and I hope you understand why I locked it. People were starting to suggest hiring assassins, etc., and things like that ... you can't come back from. You don't have to hold things in - in fact, if you feel like letting it out here, I'm sure you'll get some encouragement/support/reminders that karma is a bitch. Much better to let it out than to hold it in and do things that aren't in your character - things that can't be taken back.