I suppose I would ask you what would it take for you not to feel paranoid and stressed? would you need to totally walk away from the 'life' so to speak? As one of the posts above mentioned profit is measured in human capital too, what you value about your life, enjoying the nice things and feeling a genuine sense of pleasure and happiness in your day to day is worth more than any deal or profit margin, something I know you already get anyway but it is worth reminding yourself. Best advice I can give is have an exit strategy so you are working towards a point in time when you no longer need to do the things that are causing you to feel this stressed. Like most of us we all have a lot to lose playing this risking game on SR, I take my liberty very seriously and even though I'm not experiencing the same level of anxiety as you are I certainly think a healthy dose of paranoia is a good thing to keep yourself sharp to avoid making stupid complacent mistakes. From what you have said you seem to have your shit locked down pretty tight, maybe it's time to look for a way to put a bit of distance between the the things that could see you come to under an LE spotlight, at the very least give yourself permission to take a proper holiday and relax, your body and mind will thank you.