This morning sucks.
You know the feeling of missing someone so much that it just fucking hurts and crushes your entire existence?
Ah... the one that got away. I don't think I'll ever fully recover from this one.
Fuck, I wish I could sleep but I know taking valium isn't going to help me long term.
Rough times guys, rough times.
It's a challenging time when emotions like this pop up and overwhelm oneself. The mind can go haywire.
Take strength in the knowledge that these feelings will subdide and enough time will pass that this will all be history.
In the meantime pop an e and walk along the beach in a tweed jacket.
Thanks for the advise.
I know how these things work but they never really seem to get easier. Just slightly less frequent.
I've had a very difficult 5 years, especially the past 2, which I can't really talk about just for my own anonymity. But this specific girl got me out of a dark place that I probably would never have left, she essentially saved my life. I wish I could explain more, it's such a hard situation to be in. I guess you can say I'm one of those guys who's very in touch with his emotions. (I can control them most of the time) but fuck I wish I had the ability to ignore them. That's why I love benzos, lol.
The beech, tweed jacket an E idea sounds fun. Except no beaches around here, I don't own a tweed jacket and I'm trying really hard to not substitute my emotions with drugs. Fuck mate, I'm really struggling not to knock back 50mg of Valium.
Been there mate, I think everyone goes through at least one devastating break up during there lives, the only certainty you can be sure of is no matter how bad it seems right now it will get easier with time and hopefully you will look back and see the positive aspects of how having had the opportunity to journey with that person has enriched your life. Anesthetizing yourself with any substances will only prolong the pain and distort your perceptions, best to allow yourself to grieve the loss and process what comes up with clarity whilst seeking the support of those who care about you mate, I'd abstain from all drugs for a while if I were you.
Too often in today's society there is an almost taboo about feeling and expressing extremes of emotion, just look at how many people are prescribed anti depressant medication by their doctors when they are feeling sadness, the only way to move through it is to feel it and process it, numbing it just buries it for a while only to resurface later.
Go and seek out your friends and family mate, best medicine there is.