Wow...well said. I liked the way you wrote it. I can tell you didn't even try and you wrote it fast but really well. And I read it fast. Good read! I agree with everything you said. And I would have quoted it but it was long and I figure if you are going to write something that dead on and ...well that good that the least I could do is answer the 1 question you asked. Even though you didn't specifically ask me, you asked all Rx dealers.....here it is for those that don't know what I am talking about----- the least Rx vendors could do is admit that they do indeed make a hefty profit because of a very specific addiction I didn't know Rx vendors had a rep for not admitting that...nor did I know that people thought any different. I am also not sure if you want me to admit I make a hefty profit(I do) or if you want me to admit I make one because of an addiction? Meaning that somehow I would not admit that...I guess the answer is of course I do. But I must tell you I never think in those terms. When I got about 3/4 a way through your post..I was bummed.. Just kind of a downer when you look at it that way you wrote that. Don't get me wrong...I believe everything you said is 100% true ....though I am sure someone on here would disagree. I just never think of those things. I actually am an optimist and always think of the good. And I mean always.. I am a very positive thinker. The good being how great you feel when you are on pain meds and your not fucked up on them. How great I feel when I sell out. How happy people are when they get the package and they message me. I like the money I make selling them. I actually like the feedback when people are happy getting what they ordered. But I will share this. Last week I messaged a customer who also happens to be a vendor on here. I told him that my Roxie are back in. I would like to share the message he responded back to me------- First I am going to give you my message to him. A little back ground..I have been selling to him every week sometimes twice a week ...either Roxie or Opana. He would order 20 of either one. At first it was only Roxie...He is actually the person who made the write up for the dremel technique for the Opana 40. He always left the best feedback...and he always sent me great long messages on just random things. And never came across anything other then a good guy to me. Someone I liked and would chat with from time to time. So here is my message to him------ Just wanted to let you know I have Roxie back in... Hope your doing good RxKing This was his message to me 1 hour later-------- Yeah man, Im done with opiates...I had a near death experience; ended up on narcan thanks to a friend who found me passed out and purple....from there to detox...and now in a sober house with 30 days (off opiates) still on addies and benzoes but those I need I did find that package by the way, and its been a pleasure doing buisness with you, it was a fun run homes. stay safe and keep doin your thang. Much Respect, C And after I got that...I just sat back and kind of starred into my screen and thought about what would happen if someone I sold pills to actually died. And as I was just starring at the computer and thinking about this guy...my "friend/customer" in here and where he was at that moment...I was refreshing the inbox and every time or about every other time a new message was coming in and all I can see is the from who and the title and most just said "subject" but there were a few that read "Love you king! Roxies are back!" things like that..all I remember is me sitting there for about 45 min just thinking about what if "my friend" had died. Again realize I had messaged with him for 5 months..and he sent me sometimes 5 page long messages of the funniest, crazy stories. I mean the guy was a vendor and a buyer and gave me his address. I say he trusted me.. And he ALWAYS made me laugh..and if you read my feedback and you laugh....it was from him.. Anyways he lives back east and when I first heard of the storm I actually thought about him...I have no family back there but I do have IRL friends and I wondered about him..Was weird actually. But what I thought was the most amazing thing about him..... was his response to me. When I first read it..I was just in shock that happened to him. Then it hit me that this kind of shit happens and I was the one who gave it to him. Then I thought about all the others I have sold to and what has happened to them. And now all I think about is how great a guy he is to write me that message with no hate directed at me . You guys have read it... I just can't get over that. And I wondered if I was in his shoes... if I could write that. He said many times. I was HIS #1 guy. Yes there were others...but I was his go to vendor. I would actually send him 2 orders and he would "buy" the other order when he got the BTC the next week and i just would not send it. Not that it was much money ...but he sure thought it was...and said many a time after 3 or 4 months of maybe doing it 5 times how generous it was of me and how much he liked that I trusted him. Because he said IRL no one trusted him. I did. And he never once didn't do what he said he would. He really was my "best" customer. And after what he told me... it really made me think of what I really do. I know I vend to people that have no control and are in serious trouble. I also vend to others that have their life in control and just like to take meds(smallest group) I also vend to others that resell. And I vend to those that have not yet had a problem that will 100% for sure have one based on what I give them. And it makes me think how many people fucking hate me. Mothers, wife's, sisters,brothers,perky, And when I think like that it makes me want to quit. Yes I also vend to some that have cancer or some other health problem that give me long messages on how much they thank me and how I "save" their life's. I am not dumb. I realize that those people do exist but more then likely it is a "sick" person that is just addicted to pain killers. Even Perky told me he wont fuck with pain killers as they fucked him up before. A vendor on here recently told me they are stopping. And the first reason they said is they used to be addicted to pain meds and are not now..But they are sick of being the person that supplies that person that was them. It really made me think. It has been 2 weeks since my friend sent me that message. And I sent him back a long message thanking him for not blaming me. And I ended it with "I hope you never read this" meaning I hope he does not log onto SR. So I don't like to think about that truth. I know it exist. I am not stupid. But I also believe that there is another side that is not such a downer. And that is the side I think about. I don't just do it with SR. I do it in every aspect of my life. I always find the good in something. Other then animal abusers and child molesters. I think BOTH should be killed. So you ask me if I will admit I make a huge profit selling something that is highly addict-able. YES. And yes I think about all the bad it causes. Just like I think about the bad Mc Donald's causes or alcohol sales cause. So in truth if all I did was think about the bad. I would quit. And one day I will. But for now I sell Rx to anyone that has the BTC for it. And I don't think about how or where they got it. I don't think about how they are going to use it. I just do not think like that. But just being honest....in all aspects of my life I don't think about the negative. But when my friend sent me that message..... All I thought about is how he is ok. And how he didn't blame me. How if I didn't vend to him...someone else would have. And I am just happy he didn't die.