Ill be the first insensitive asshole to comment. You have been together since she was 14. You had a house on the lake at one point and lived in your car at another point? You purchased a car for your anniversary but not for your wedding anniversary since you were only married a few months? She kept you from killing yourself but now that she has passed are you going to? What did she die of? Were you living in a car when she passed? Was it the car you bought her for your anniversary?