That's truly terrible news. I know there's nothing I can possibly say that can alleviate it, but I wish that there was.As blackend646 said, there's no way you could have foreseen that diagnosis. You have nothing to feel guilty for.I hope the path you are walking now can lead, at least, to some solace.Finally, I'll join with sdesu's offer. If you need to talk, on the forums or via PM, then feel free. Take care.