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I have taken LSD on probably about 288 occasions. Largely it has had a pretty neutral effect on my life, leaning towards positive. I experienced Ego death and it was quite beautiful but I don't think it was really life changing. I have gained some very deep introspection into my life , certainly aided by LSDs ability to cause me to vividly relive past experiences. I feel like it helped me to understand how minds work, and my own in particular. It has given me several experiences with God, someone who I never had had experiences with before but who I still do not believe exists, if that makes any sense. Perhaps it has helped me to fear death less , particularly from ego death experiences, but I am entirely unconvinced that I will really merge into eternity when I die (I strongly suspect that I will fade into oblivion, unfortunately. My biggest hope for eternal life was a cyclic universe, but unfortunately it appears that the universe will experience heat death.).  I really have an appreciation for aesthetics that LSD may have increased, I certainly have obtained an understanding that things are far far more intricate and detailed than my sober mind allows me to perceive. I may have a new perspective on life from it, it is hard to say how much of who I am is from LSD and how much is just from myself growing up and changing separately of LSD.

I can't really think of any ways that LSD has negatively impacted my life. Maybe time I spent tripping instead of working and doing productive things, 288 acid trips literally translates into almost a year of time spent high and incapable of doing significant work.

I think I will probably continue using LSD until the day I die, at least once or twice a month, preferably four times a month and preferably not more than that. I have to admit that I sometimes take LSD hoping for a truly life changing positive experience, but LSD has not brought that to me and likely it never will. I view it as like going to an art gallery to appreciate aesthetics, except the art is nature and the LSD simply allows me to see it as such. It is like therapy in some sense, I am sure it has had a therapeutically beneficial effect on me. It is like a religious experience beyond a doubt, indeed it is a religious experience, but I am not a religious person and LSD has not convinced me away from logic anymore than Christians have, but it has certainly been far more agreeable and helpful to me .

Sometimes it is hard to know if acid creates an illusion that distorts reality or if it inhibits mental filters that distort reality and shows you a more true reality that appears as a distortion as you are coming from a distorted perception of reality that you have accepted as real. I think it does both of these things actually, in some ways it clearly distorts reality and in some ways it clearly removes the distortion caused by the filters the sober mind perceives reality through. I don't know where Ego death falls. Logically I have strong doubts that the perception of eternal continuity associated with  Ego death is a more clear perception of objective reality than the sober perception of discrete existence, although it sure would be beautiful and awesome. I also logically strongly doubt the existence of God and Heaven, although it sure would be awesome if we get to go to Eternal paradise after we die (well probably will not be allowed in due to my strong logical doubts, but oh well, I will just take acid).

When Ego death is experienced you don't have a perception of self. It is as if you merge into eternity, the boundaries that separate you from everything else break apart and the self becomes the everything. Many people literally feel as if they are dying and it can indeed cause intense fear and panic especially if you fight it. If you just let it happen it causes the most intense euphoria imaginable, not like a dopamine rush euphoria but the euphoria that comes from knowing you cannot possibly have any problems or fears because there is literally no you to be having them. I read this poem in username poems thread and I think it is a perfect description of ego death:

Once released,
I rose up and decayed into little pieces
then everything blew away
leaving infinite peace
revealing everywhere through space and time
unveiling the concealing by my human mind of what's whole
many bodies and kinds yet one soul
in my vision our division had appeared clearly separated
when it faded away, it alleviated my fear and pain

@kmfkewm, I have/had a growing respect for many of the concepts you have written about (except actual killing). Ideologically agorism and to a lesser extent anarchism makes sense to me.

It is unfortunate that your responses here are less that sensible and contribute nothing.

First of all you insult me by saying that my ideas are just stupid without acknowledging my having written that :
"I'm feeling a little too lazy right now to recollect" better ones and without offering any constructive input like some suggested propaganda terms of your own that you believe not to to be 'stupid'

Secondly, the whole world does not revolve around you ! Is it sufficient to make a statement asking someone else to change their natural wording just because it reminds you personally of something negative ? did it cause you any harm ? yet you want to coerce me into actions !

And I believe you miss the point... women may have children while habitually taking meth (a rarity), but that is no reason to choose to use the anti's loaded term of 'Meth Babies' when referring to them as it reinforces the negative and tends to make the listener believe that because there is a 'term' for it, it must be more common that it really is.(these things are very subtle in the way they almost subliminally condition us)

I would have thought you would have supported the idea as one more small step towards your stated goals... but whatever, maybe I have not read enough of your posts and you really are a reactionary, self centered jerk.

The thing is that these words are not even from prohibitionists. Crack is called crack because when you cook it up from baking soda / cocaine it makes a cracking sound when heated. Where is the propaganda in that? Skin sores can really be caused from using meth and other drugs like amphetamine and mephedrone. What do you think we should call them? Skin sores existed before drugs were even illegal. Skin sores existed before homo sapiens existed.  It has no real association with drug use unless the sores are from drug use or from behavior engaged in during drug use. How is crystal meth a propaganda term? Meth is a crystal substance. What about crystal mephedrone, should we just call it mephedrone even if it is powdery? How does ice even have negative connotations at all?

I support the idea of combating propaganda but not living in denial. It is denialism to think that we shouldn't use the word skin sore to refer to skin sores caused from drug use. Use of some drugs can contribute to skin sores, use of amphetamine can contribute to oral decay, use of meth by pregnant women can lead to serious health consequences for their children. Crack is a slang term from the sound of freebasing coke with baking soda, crack whores whore themselves for crack.

If you want to combat propaganda why not go tell people the truth about drugs. The truth is that LSD doesn't cause chromosome damage. The truth is that smoking marijuana doesn't make you impotent. There is so much real propaganda out there that there are tons of things that you can discredit from the prohibitionists, there are tons of excellent points you can make for drug legalization; the truth is on our side and their entire foundation is made up of lies lies and more lies. Why don't you photoshop some images that list facts about marijuana with scientific citations linked from them, and a list of lies the government has said about marijuana with links to citations, and try to make it humorous so that it catches on and spreads around the internet as a meme ? Why not make your own counter propaganda and try to get it to go viral? That will be infinitely more effective than pretending that coke doesn't make a cracking sound when it is made into 'slightly freebased cocaine, formed via a mixture of baking soda water and cocaine, with the mixture heated until the water evaporates' (is this what you suggest we call crack now?). 

Also I suggest calling them prohibitionists instead of anti's. For some reason that term just reminds me of pedophiles and white supremacists.

New vendor is 100% not a cop, unless you are ordering precursor materials and paying like $10,000+ for it.

Yeah I can't remember the last time someone went to jail who hadn't purchased $10,000 worth of precursors to start up a drug manufacturing lab.