Hey, I got BP too.I tried ket. It was fun, but not really a cure. Cheap to play with and safe . It didn't do much for me but distracted me in a happy way for sure. It's nice to have something on hand to snort. :-). It sounds to me like you could benefit from testosterone. Doctor will never give it to you , because its abused so much. Get it here on the road. Cheap. I had to use it. Now I can start to feel it working. More sex drive, happier , aggressive and outgoing. Nice. It's about. $134. For 10 weeks of it. That's a high dose that will also grow mass and if you work out muscles. Half of that dose for hormone therapy. Read up on it. Testosterone depletion in winter is a one. Even for ladies apparently.