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indica9, how do you see the SR bitcoin valuation? I never found a link to see it displayed, I guess I never looked into it that much. Or do you just go by calculating the prices of your listings? I'd really like to know.

Thanks.

I don't understand how low can LSD dosage be.  Tabs/liquids with potency over 150ug became a rare thing...
Why?? What Happened to the LSD market?  The way I see it, in 2-3 years from now, dosage above 100ug will be a rare thing 

Please, Vendors, give us some crystal to buy. Or lay your own 200ug, 300ug, 400ug. Don't be miserly. I'm tired of all these low dosage products...     Feels like the whole worldwide market just want to profit more and more instead of spread the word...     Too bad...


BPM

I have acess to extremely cheap vet quality ketamine... i dont understand why on earth the vials (when there here on SR, are SO fucking expensive (over $50 a vial!@@))

For me they are under $10 A VIAL.. usually 10ml vials, 50mg a vial, so a half gram a vial...

Can anyone elaborate why the fuck their so expensive?

Sorry Reich, but I can't hold this secret in anymore. Reich's ketamine is not good quality. I went through a gram via snorting/injecting in just 3 hours and wasn't able to k-hole. I was barely high at all really. He sent me a sample of a new batch and it was just as bad though it was crystals instead of powder (the previous batch). I IM/IV'd 250mg over the course of an hour and still didn't get didn't anywhere. I hadn't done ketmaine for 3 months prior to this so it wasn't a tolerance issue. It felt like 30mg of MXE via IM at the most. I would not recommend Reich's ketamine which sucks because his used to be consistently  good before he left.

I did however receive a gram from Project 4 which was just a bit better than Reich's and I was able to k-hole with <300mg nasal which is ridiculous as I only weigh 150 pound but that's what it took to finally get there. I've lost faith in ketamine from UK. USA ketamine may cost twice as much but it's also vastly superior in my experience here in over 2 years.

Quote from: GoodShitExplorer on March 23, 2013, 03:21 pm

Today I have become AWAKENED!!!

Thank you Albion.
Thank you LSD Avengers
Thank you SR community
Thank you DPR

And thanks to million others who contributed in million different ways in making this acid trip happen today!!!


Love and light to you all
AWAKENED GSE

This trip report is still in the raw form. Did not get much time to re-organize my thoughts. So, please, bear with my incoherent stream of thoughts.

It was a 6 tabs (6x100ug) trip of Albion's recent Shivas. I have previously experienced these Shivas and I know they are extremely clean and pure and accurately dosed. So, I put the 6 tabs on my tongue and let them melt for a minute or two and then chewed and swallowed. The taste is bitter if you are curious.

I had good rest before the trip and the last food consumed was about 10+ hours ago and my stomach was almost empty. My mind was calm and quiet before the trip and expectation was quite low. I was in the mood for exploring myself a bit and was watching some self-exploration videos on youtube after I swallowed the tabs.

I started feeling the first effect (OEV, etc.) at around T+00:30. This early effect might have been due to my empty stomach. By T+00:45 I got the CEV. By T+01:00 I thought I had the full blown effect. I had all the usual effects, like time dilation, wall breathing, color saturation, etc. But boy, I was wrong!!!

From T+01:30 - T+02:00 my environment turned so beautiful. The air turned some sort of milky white mist with nice soothing glitters everywhere. It felt so good just to even look around. I felt all around connectedness with my environment and walking, sitting and everything I did felt amazingly good. It was a great feeling walking pushing the milky white misty air that I could see clearly. It's really difficult to express what I felt and saw. I do not really have appropriate words for it to describe.

While I was having a fantastic euphoric time all around I thought of exploring myself a bit and understand the purpose of my existence if there is any at all. As I sat on my chair relaxed the air in front of me turned into a three dimensional holographic display and there an image appeared of myself and everybody else's from my known world. Now my visual field seemed quite busy with these people around me. In that holographic field I started to deconstruct myself. I could see many layers just like an onion. I could slowly pill them off; my education, my possession, my relationships, my actions, my thoughts, my perceptions, my physical body, etc.  At the core there was a tiny sparkle of light, a point, as it seems. As I looked closely at the center it seemed like a big fat donut with a small hole at the center. As I further deconstructed the donut it felt just like a magnetic bar placed vertically north at the top and south at the bottom and the white and bluish magnetic field forming the donut shape around it (just like magnetic field around earth). It was a beautiful beautiful holographic three dimensional image!!! It's difficult to fully express the beauty of it in words.

As I sat there in my chair looking at this magnificent magnetic field/structure it occurred to me that the South pole was nothing but the awareness gate through which my physical body was receiving all the sensory inputs. And there I, at the center, the core of me, was nothing but a point of awareness collecting everything through my senses and this collection of senses (awareness) forming the central column of that magnetic bar and as this (awareness) passed through the north gate it mysteriously turned into a cloud called consciousness. At this point in time I practically could not feel my body boundary. It felt like I was one with my environment. The feeling was indescribable.

In that consciousness cloud I saw how all the entities in the external world were approximated and virtualized. I saw how I constructed a virtual image of my friend Joe in my consciousness and forming all the perceptions about him. I realized that this virtualized Joe in my consciousness may not have much in common with the real world Joe. And thus my consciousness approximately constructed everything I need in order to operate in the real world. I realized my "self" is nothing more than a collection of thoughts, perceptions and a bunch of approximated and virtualized living/non-living entities!!! It was an amazing feeling when I realized that. I sat there speechless, motionless for quite some time!!! I was practically lost.

As I slowly paid close attention to this consciousness cloud I saw there is a lot happening. The consciousness stream was flowing as if it was a donut type of fountain in which water streams were flowing outward (just like the magnetic field around the earth). It occurred to me that there were bunch of fishermen type entities each one with a different type of net catching different type of fish/entities from the arising consciousness stream. This is something like a group of people catching and organizing different entities as they arrived in the consciousness stream. They seemed busier in catching new fish/entity rather than organizing/storing them. They seemed always moving onto the next new adventure and never content with what they have got!!! Is this called "MIND"? Always curious about the new things and never satisfied with what it got?

So, there I was wondering about me and myself and about my known world, playing with my thoughts, perceptions and the approximated virtualized entities in my consciousness. Wondered about how erroneous they are and how stupid we are to rely on them!!! I do not know how much time I spent there trying to know myself better and see through the core of me. It was as if the point of awareness was a viewing point and my "self" was just like a point of view. May be this is the price we pay in order to operate in the real world. Each one of us turns into a point of view from viewing point!!!

I spent rest of the trip exploring the associated thoughts like life and death and of course purpose of life and sex!!! I am going to keep this trip report short as I know things are getting boring as these are just my personal experiences and may not be much of interest to you all.


So, in summary this is what I learned from this trip
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Who am I?
- I am nothing but a point of awareness.

What is my ego?
- My ego is a collection of thoughts, perceptions, actions and a bunch of approximated and virtualized entities.

Why is my ego needed?
- Ego makes sense of the world and is very essential to operate in the real world. Just being aware of my environment is not enough for survival.

What is my life?
- Movement of point of awareness across space and time.

Am I awakened?
- I believe so. At least to some extent. I never ever analyzed my life like that before. I could see the root cause of many of the problems in my life.



Some trivial observations some of you might (or not!) like
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- The only cosmic purpose of life is to create more lives. Sorry my gay brothers and sisters; love and affection for your fellow human being should not be mistaken as the replacement for birth mechanism. You can have all your human rights to live your life how you want and do other things but you can't have babies with the same gender mixing your own gene!!! Love and affections are not part of the cosmic equation and you guys are on the wrong path as far as the basic purpose of life is concerned

- Sex is a mechanism for generating the point of awareness and orgasm is the reward, for male, for doing that.

- Individual consciousness is more encompassing view and collective consciousness is like a reductionist point of view. How ironic is that!!! Normally one would think that collective consciousness would be more encompassing view than individual ones!!! It's funny how consciousness works!!!

- To be someone in the society one needs to have a strong point of view and thus a strong ego. The stronger the ego the stronger one gets attached hir thoughts. But our society seem to value that and in order to be successful in our society one would need to have a stronger view point (specialized).

- Penis always tries to make a point and thus has more ego than vagina. One can take the analogy of mountain and valley where mountain being the penis and the valley being the vagina. They have pretty good interpersonal relationship and have no issues working together to produce something useful

- Since penis always makes a point it is rewarded with an orgasm in an intercourse to produce babies. But vagina is not required to get an orgasm to make babies. Sorry girls, female orgasm is not part of the cosmic game. It is just a bonus for you all when you get it.

- Vagina does not have much of ego and it seems to be more forgiving on the outside. The little bit of ego that is shown by her clitoris remains hidden under various layers and you can indeed experience the true power of vagina once you explore her clit. Little but enormously powerful     

- Boobies rise above to make good points and thus they seem to have more ego than the vagina. That's why women score more points in the society with her boobies than her vagina!!!

- Strawberries are the best fruits to end an acid trip!!!


Thanks for reading.

GSE