So sorry to hear that, rowdy. :( I only barely know you from a couple of thread replies but you seem like a really good person, and losing a parent is the worst thing anyone can go through, especially when you're that close..I'm not a religious person, but you're in my thoughts dude.. Sending good vibes your way; stay strong spirited, cry as much as possible, get the anguish out and when you feel you can, start mourning your loss.. but no matter how bad things get, never forget that the future is always just around the corner. I won't say that a loss like that gets easier with time, but it does get easier to <i>deal with</i>..You take it easy, brother.. :(- grahamgreene