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Discussion => Newbie discussion => Topic started by: feetfloors on October 01, 2013, 07:19 pm
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Hi, I have some serious confidence issues. Last time i tried to hold a speech in front of my class i had to take heroin to be able to handle it, tho fucked it up anyways because i didn't have much left and it didn't give me confidence at all, it just kept me cool until it was my turn :(
So I wonder what drug is best for me to use so i can give like speeches and similar in school? I can't really handle to do them without any drugs. I just fuck them up, doesn't matter if i studded or not. So i thought cocaine would be best? Idk tho, only tried it once but didn't feel anything so don't got any experience with it.
Thanks in advance!
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Hi, I have some serious confidence issues. Last time i tried to hold a speech in front of my class i had to take heroin to be able to handle it, tho fucked it up anyways because i didn't have much left and it didn't give me confidence at all, it just kept me cool until it was my turn :(
So I wonder what drug is best for me to use so i can give like speeches and similar in school? I can't really handle to do them without any drugs. I just fuck them up, doesn't matter if i studded or not. So i thought cocaine would be best? Idk tho, only tried it once but didn't feel anything so don't got any experience with it.
Thanks in advance!
You need to test this stuff out before you go in front of a crowd, but I would say Valium to calm the nerves and relax into it, or to be a little looser, funny and positive, definitely Provigil or Nuvigil (both are the same).
Try to have fun with it man, know your shit inside and out and it's a breeze.
Modzi
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I know it's the Road and availability of anything is at hand, but I'd simply go with a couple of shots of Tequila (obviously: don't over do it), especially if not sure how you'll respond to other things.
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just take a big toke of dmt 5 mins before going on stage...
it will work like a charm my friend
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just take a big toke of dmt 5 mins before going on stage...
it will work like a charm my friend
i kid you obviously :o
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definitely Charles.
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I might suggest just trying a beta blocker, maybe not as sexy and fun as a recreational drug, but it might be all you need to do the trick and much cheaper. Without giving anything more away, I've worked in a performance industry for quite a long time and the first thing to try for people that have issues with nerves is a simple beta blocker.
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I might suggest just trying a beta blocker, maybe not as sexy and fun as a recreational drug, but it might be all you need to do the trick and much cheaper. Without giving anything more away, I've worked in a performance industry for quite a long time and the first thing to try for people that have issues with nerves is a simple beta blocker.
+1 for that. Professional musicians' worst-kept secret.
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Be very careful about taking beta blockers if you have asthma, though.
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Xanax, 15-20mg should do the trick. The best part is even if you totally bomb you won't remember it anyway ;D
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Yeah id say a benzo xanax or valium
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Me personally, I'd go with a stimulant like Adderall. You wouldn't want to take so much that you get fidgety and bug eyed, of course, but just enough to keep you focused, funny, talkative and on point. I second the tequila idea also, maybe a couple hits of pot if you're into that to counteract the stimulant or even by itself.
When I took a speech class and had to give my final speech, I used a big gas station cup and filled it with a cocktail. I'm not suggesting this, it was just really hard for me at the time because the speech was really personal (it was on abortion, speaking from personal experience), and I was a bit of an alcoholic at the time.
Seriously though, stimulants in moderate doses do wonders for confidence and charisma.
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I know it's the Road and availability of anything is at hand, but I'd simply go with a couple of shots of Tequila (obviously: don't over do it), especially if not sure how you'll respond to other things.
idk i don't feel much more confidence when I'm drinking :/
You need to test this stuff out before you go in front of a crowd, but I would say Valium to calm the nerves and relax into it, or to be a little looser, funny and positive, definitely Provigil or Nuvigil (both are the same).
Try to have fun with it man, know your shit inside and out and it's a breeze.
Modzi
It won't help if i know it inside out, the problem is that i have some serous social problems. Got diagnose with sever depression and asperger syndrome.
Hmm so you think Valium would do the trick? tho i need something that both calms my nerves and also gives me confidence
I might suggest just trying a beta blocker, maybe not as sexy and fun as a recreational drug, but it might be all you need to do the trick and much cheaper. Without giving anything more away, I've worked in a performance industry for quite a long time and the first thing to try for people that have issues with nerves is a simple beta blocker.
Tried that before, it helped with the nerves. but i still stopped and did stuff like that, but wasn't nervous so they were kind of good. tho you needed to take like 5 of those pills and my parents are supper nosy so i can't really buy much, like if i buy some drug i can buy like 3 grams and it will do for a long time. But with those i need to buy a lot and the chance that they find them in the mail is bigger.
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Meth: Now hear me out before you start laughing. That first rush off the pipe and you feel more confident, more intelligent and can talk forever about the lamest subject. at least that is how i feel
but you got to be careful for if you do too much you will be a blabbering tweaker and it will definitely show. So just a very small amount, but like the other poster stated I would experiment first.
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Xanax and Valium are good choices, because they can make you feel very relaxed and at ease. Adderall may also be an alternative choice, because it can make you feel focused and confident, and it usually makes me pretty relaxed as well.
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I find ROA influences how meth affects me much moreso than other drugs. A toke off the pipe gets me super high but a small line gets me focused without the "party head"
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Last semester I ordered some Nuvigil and Provigil and they didn't help anxiety for giving speeches. If anything I believe they made it worse. I actually gave away about 50 pills because they were making me more anxious.
I ordered the Provigil and Nuvigil as an alternative to my Adderall. It appears stimulants just don't help me. I could see tequila doing the trick though.
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So i should try meth, benzo, Adderall and i might try beta blocker again?
The beta blockers, they only make you calm right? I only tested to do a speech on them once (when i had some) and i didn't feel nervous at all, but I still messed up like as if i would not have taken them? Just that i didn't feel it, Do you think that is because i hadn't study on that thing? Or do you think it's because my confidence issues? Thanks in advance!
Last semester I ordered some Nuvigil and Provigil and they didn't help anxiety for giving speeches. If anything I believe they made it worse. I actually gave away about 50 pills because they were making me more anxious.
I ordered the Provigil and Nuvigil as an alternative to my Adderall. It appears stimulants just don't help me. I could see tequila doing the trick though.
Hmm okay so i should also try alcohol then also?
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So i should try meth, benzo, Adderall and i might try beta blocker again?
The beta blockers, they only make you calm right? I only tested to do a speech on them once (when i had some) and i didn't feel nervous at all, but I still messed up like as if i would not have taken them? Just that i didn't feel it, Do you think that is because i hadn't study on that thing? Or do you think it's because my confidence issues? Thanks in advance!
I've always found that 90% of nervousness or confidence issues comes from lack of preparation. If you took a beta blocker, did not feel nervous, but still had issues like memory slips or getting off-track I would take a look at your preparation habits. Whether it's a speech, song, theater, whatever, it's all about repetition, repetition, repetition....and a good nights sleep in between sessions. Many people may not realize the importance of sleep in the process of memorization and preparation, but from personal experience, I can't stress enough how important it is. Good luck!
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Hi feetfloors...
I just noticed your post and thought i'd share something which may be beneficial (but more so over time).
I too had strong confidence issues like you mentioned. I would be ok amongst family or a small group of very close friends but when in company of bigger groups of people my head used work differently.
Like you I was diagnosed with depression but I was also diagnosed with adhd when younger and these two were kinda conflicting in ways.
I smoked a lot of weed at the time and didn't get out as much as I should have so this didn't help my case but anyhow.
A few posts here mention valium and similar alternatives. I would agree that these would help on short notice as you describe. But don't over do it! See how one works on you one day in your own time and test it first.
But this is what I wanted to get to. I don't know you as a person but I ask you this: Do you do much exercise? Do you spend most of your spare time just on the computer?? Maybe you are insecure about how you look and secretly without you knowing, this may be causing your problems. Exercise release serotonin which in turn will regulate your mood better and sleep amongst other things.
I used never exercise at all when I mentioned how I used be the same as you. For the past year I go the gym 3-5 days per week and now I am more confident in everything I do than I have ever been. I can guarantee you that in time you will feel so much more confident.
Maybe you already do work out a lot and this may not be your issue but if you don't, rest assured you will benefit greatly from it.
Hope this can help you out in the long run dude.
Peace out.
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Snort some MDMA. It makes your mouth go!
Also i feel unstoppable when im rolling high doses of this. Picking up ladies is pretty and talking to strangers becomes so easy - Give it a go.
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I've always found that 90% of nervousness or confidence issues comes from lack of preparation. If you took a ...
ye, tho it have been times when i have been prepared and could not handle it, Like the last time when i took heroin to manage it I knew almost all of it by heart and still failed :/ also some times before i knew everything and i could not manage to do it, so i skipped the class that day :/ so i don't think preparation is the thing.
Hi feetfloors...
I just noticed your post and thought i'd share something which may be beneficial (but more so over time).
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ye i could try going to the gym but as you said I FUCKING HATE the way i look, Can't even go to the gym because i feel so insecure and stuff like that, Like if someone laugh i KNOW that they laughed at me :/ I also forgot to mention that I have social phobia :(
Snort some MDMA. It makes your mouth go!
Also i feel unstoppable when im rolling high doses of this. Picking up ladies is pretty and talking to strangers becomes so easy - Give it a go.
Tho I can't roll high in class, my teacher would noticed
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I've always found that 90% of nervousness or confidence issues comes from lack of preparation. If you took a ...
ye, tho it have been times when i have been prepared and could not handle it, Like the last time when i took heroin to manage it I knew almost all of it by heart and still failed :/ also some times before i knew everything and i could not manage to do it, so i skipped the class that day :/ so i don't think preparation is the thing.
Hi feetfloors...
I just noticed your post and thought i'd share something which may be beneficial (but more so over time).
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ye i could try going to the gym but as you said I FUCKING HATE the way i look, Can't even go to the gym because i feel so insecure and stuff like that, Like if someone laugh i KNOW that they laughed at me :/ I also forgot to mention that I have social phobia :(
Snort some MDMA. It makes your mouth go!
Also i feel unstoppable when im rolling high doses of this. Picking up ladies is pretty and talking to strangers becomes so easy - Give it a go.
Tho I can't roll high in class, my teacher would noticed
Well man usually that is where the negative feelings are coming from...
The world is unfortunately full of dicks and there will always be those who may laugh at certain people for numerous reasons. But rest assured, alot of the time that is just to put out the impression that they're perfect and have no concerns of there own but they sure do.
Don't ever let someone elses opinion bother you. Sometimes it can be hard but people who worry what others think are always gonna be making slow progress in getting on in life...
About the way you look. All of us are different in our own very unique ways. Don't ever be stressing yourself about this because more so than not it will only make you feel worse the more you think about it.
I used be very over weight before I started gymming and now am that much more fit and have lost it all...
Anybody can do it but the key is to keep saying to yourself that you can. Starting off it seems like an impossible task but as the weeks fly by and each week you notice a slight change the more happier you get and in turn more confidence you have. :)
Feel free to pm me if you'd like any help man cos it seems you have such similar issues I have been through not long ago and i'd be more than happy to help in any way possible.
Peace
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Modafinil/armodafinil are pretty good for speaking and maybe a beta blocker to take the edge off and control your nerves.
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Depends on your personality/chemical makeup. Some people shine on Adderall, some people just become fast-talking, nervous messes.
Probably no drug will help you as much as just plowing forth in public speaking situations over and over until it becomes natural
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What helped my final speech was writing it down and reading that shit over and over for a good 30minutes (or until you memorize it).
But if you're confidence is really low and you mention self esteem issues, I'd try meth. Eat like 10-15mg if you are a first timer. You'll feel like a superstar and you'll feel like everyone loves you.
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yeah, a low does of meth was my first instinct. Do too much, and you'll feel like superman, but everyone will know you're tweaking.
Other alternitives I would use:
Xanax. Around .5 to 2mg depending on how familiar you are with it. Takes the edge off.
I would prefer opiates. Not enough to nod, but get you in the right frame of mind where you feel confident in yourself to where you could care less what others think.
I would go with opiates or meth. Opiates you won't care what others think, meth you will be highly aware, and quite witty at the same time, it will give the impression people are digging you.
Xanax....you won't really be too aware of what others think either way.