The question is really what do you feel? Are you happy with you choices and actions. They are a rather compendious way of exemplifying your personality, so when reflecting upon these thing, do you feel proud? Personal I find that our consciousness is what allows us to perceive, but it is viewed through the ego (our personality, our wants, hopes, outlook, memories), and through this lens we see / experience our own personal reality. The dissolution of this reality through experience not limited and bound by normal sensory perception and the lens of the ego lends to an experience that is transcendental, allows us a comparison by which to judge our self, helps to understand thing in a way not so attached to our personal reality. Peace, DigitalAlch