Silk Road forums
Discussion => Off topic => Topic started by: pkizenko98 on April 14, 2013, 08:12 am
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This thread is for anyone who has been consumed with the SR forum. If you have not mowed your lawn in 6 months, this is for you. If you have not seen your friends or family because you have been posting your ass off, this is for you. If you are in danger of failing out of whatever higher education institution you may belong too, this is for you. If you are about to lose your day job and its A OK with you because it means more quality time on the forums, this is for you! Share Please!
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Hi, my name's Fallkniven and I'm addicted to Silk Road.
I have weeds in my garden that are 4 feet tall, my family has disowned me after I offered to sell them some MDMA I bought off a SR vendor, I got kicked out of college for turning up stoned off my tits and I lost my job at McDonalds for selling drugs to friends in the bathroom.
But none of that stuff bothers me anymore thanks to this thread. Everything's gonna be OK :P
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Hi, my name's Fallkniven and I'm addicted to Silk Road.
I have weeds in my garden that are 4 feet tall, my family has disowned me after I offered to sell them some MDMA I bought off a SR vendor, I got kicked out of college for turning up stoned off my tits and I lost my job at McDonalds for selling drugs to friends in the bathroom.
But none of that stuff bothers me anymore thanks to this thread. Everything's gonna be OK :P
..........Solid post
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Hi, my name's Fallkniven and I'm addicted to Silk Road.
I have weeds in my garden that are 4 feet tall, my family has disowned me after I offered to sell them some MDMA I bought off a SR vendor, I got kicked out of college for turning up stoned off my tits and I lost my job at McDonalds for selling drugs to friends in the bathroom.
But none of that stuff bothers me anymore thanks to this thread. Everything's gonna be OK :P
Love it. +1 and thanks for the laugh!
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Hi, my name's Fallkniven and I'm addicted to Silk Road.
I have weeds in my garden that are 4 feet tall, my family has disowned me after I offered to sell them some MDMA I bought off a SR vendor, I got kicked out of college for turning up stoned off my tits and I lost my job at McDonalds for selling drugs to friends in the bathroom.
But none of that stuff bothers me anymore thanks to this thread. Everything's gonna be OK :P
+1 for the lulz, really funny story haha
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the threads use to be 10x better on the entire forum...off topic is best section.
It's the closest to old school SR.
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I'm addicted to refuting the slippery slope logical fallacy, and hedging against society's breakdown as displayed by the boston massacre#2, making that fatal upgrade from oxy to heroin shortly, heres to violent crime!
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I'm addicted to refuting the slippery slope logical fallacy, and hedging against society's breakdown as displayed by the boston massacre#2, making that fatal upgrade from oxy to heroin shortly, heres to violent crime!
My God Man!
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I haven't eaten in days, my bed covered in feces all because of my SR fetish. I must refresh the page constantly or I'll begin to twitch. I told my gf its SR over her bitch so get used to it. SR will you marry me?
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Hi, my name's Fallkniven and I'm addicted to Silk Road.
I have weeds in my garden that are 4 feet tall, my family has disowned me after I offered to sell them some MDMA I bought off a SR vendor, I got kicked out of college for turning up stoned off my tits and I lost my job at McDonalds for selling drugs to friends in the bathroom.
But none of that stuff bothers me anymore thanks to this thread. Everything's gonna be OK :P
I haven't eaten in days, my bed covered in feces all because of my SR fetish. I must refresh the page constantly or I'll begin to twitch. I told my gf its SR over her bitch so get used to it. SR will you marry me?
hahahaha +1 you guys made me laugh
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i really did sit here on the forums in the dark all night because my light died and the only thing i could see was my keyboard. granted there are other sites and stuff out there but nothing compares to the inane and repetitive shite that gets posted on here. i know it's bad for me but i just can't quit!
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So glad I'm not the only one...
Definitely in danger of failing out of my last semester at the university...graduation is around the corner. Senioritis, coupled with my SR Forums addiction, is having a serious impact on my performance. I find myself constantly having debates on justifications for going straight onto the forums instead of LibreOffice Writer, where my work is supposed to be done. I make small orders on the Marketplace just so I can have things to talk about. My friends hardly ever see me IRL, and when I see them, all I can think about is how boring they are in comparison to all my friends on the forums. I hate the "You have posted less than 5 minutes ago" messages. I hate when it says "You have performed a search less than 0 minutes ago." My favorite page is the Updated Topics. Now I know what the Refresh button is for. I've said it before, but I'm more addicted to the community here than the drugs it provides!!
My name is Zipstyle, and I am an SR Forums addict.
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When I found SR 9 or 10 months ago, I didn't do more than lurk for a couple of months. Then I started posting, and finally understood why everybody's always on Facebook or Twitter or whatever the fuck people use these days.
It's interesting though... at first I felt very at home; too many people around these days to really feel like a community the same way, but it turns out what I'm addicted to is being me. I always try to be honest and sincere, but my DoC is a part of me. It's a piece of who I am. I'm hesitant to admit just how large a piece it really is, but for better or worse, that's the reality of it and I have to lie about that professionally. I do so hate insincerity... but I hate being destitute and with no job offers even more.
You know the Matrix, at the end... when Neo's fighting Agent Smith and he's on the subway tracks, and in response to "goodbye, Mr. Anderson," he just says "my name... is Neo!" I realized the other day that's almost exactly how I've ended up feeling. Anybody who's read my posts knows me better than anyone who actually sees my face when I'm talking to them. So hi. My name is SS, and I'm addicted to being able to admit this is who I choose to be.
This is me, and I'm okay with that. It's too bad so many people aren't.
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i really did sit here on the forums in the dark all night because my light died and the only thing i could see was my keyboard. granted there are other sites and stuff out there but nothing compares to the inane and repetitive shite that gets posted on here. i know it's bad for me but i just can't quit!
I wouldn't say its bad for you, just another thing that needs proper dosing!
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So glad I'm not the only one...
Definitely in danger of failing out of my last semester at the university...graduation is around the corner. Senioritis, coupled with my SR Forums addiction, is having a serious impact on my performance. I find myself constantly having debates on justifications for going straight onto the forums instead of LibreOffice Writer, where my work is supposed to be done. I make small orders on the Marketplace just so I can have things to talk about. My friends hardly ever see me IRL, and when I see them, all I can think about is how boring they are in comparison to all my friends on the forums. I hate the "You have posted less than 5 minutes ago" messages. I hate when it says "You have performed a search less than 0 minutes ago." My favorite page is the Updated Topics. Now I know what the Refresh button is for. I've said it before, but I'm more addicted to the community here than the drugs it provides!!
My name is Zipstyle, and I am an SR Forums addict.
We have a serious addict here. I will second you on being more addicted to the forums then any drugs I get off the market!
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When I found SR 9 or 10 months ago, I didn't do more than lurk for a couple of months. Then I started posting, and finally understood why everybody's always on Facebook or Twitter or whatever the fuck people use these days.
It's interesting though... at first I felt very at home; too many people around these days to really feel like a community the same way, but it turns out what I'm addicted to is being me. I always try to be honest and sincere, but my DoC is a part of me. It's a piece of who I am. I'm hesitant to admit just how large a piece it really is, but for better or worse, that's the reality of it and I have to lie about that professionally. I do so hate insincerity... but I hate being destitute and with no job offers even more.
You know the Matrix, at the end... when Neo's fighting Agent Smith and he's on the subway tracks, and in response to "goodbye, Mr. Anderson," he just says "my name... is Neo!" I realized the other day that's almost exactly how I've ended up feeling. Anybody who's read my posts knows me better than anyone who actually sees my face when I'm talking to them. So hi. My name is SS, and I'm addicted to being able to admit this is who I choose to be.
This is me, and I'm okay with that. It's too bad so many people aren't.
That's awesome man. I have a similar story. Recently I have been just as honest in real life about everything as I am on the forums. Brutally honest, no sugar coating whatsoever. That saying that "The Truth Hurts", I have basically proven that without a doubt to myself recently. Most people cannot take it and lash out violently when they receive it. I have had to be very careful with my mouth, It's very dangerous. I have completely distanced myself from the bullshit and the lies the rest of the world tells themselves. I have lost a couple friends along this journey, but have gained better ones. I don't know your situation self but the being honest with yourself and the rest of the world is even more sweeter off the forums. The difference with the forums is that people actually take the time to listen (read) what you are saying. Some give it actual thought and reply with substance, and some are just not at that level yet, or never will be idk.
It really is sad that people don't except who they are, I"m and asshole and I love being one, strive to be the greatest asshole there ever was.
If a things worth doing, it's worth doing right!
P.S. Has SR increased you activity on mainstream social networks?
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That's awesome man. I have a similar story. Recently I have been just as honest in real life about everything as I am on the forums. Brutally honest, no sugar coating whatsoever. That saying that "The Truth Hurts", I have basically proven that without a doubt to myself recently. Most people cannot take it and lash out violently when they receive it. I have had to be very careful with my mouth, It's very dangerous. I have completely distanced myself from the bullshit and the lies the rest of the world tells themselves. I have lost a couple friends along this journey, but have gained better ones. I don't know your situation self but the being honest with yourself and the rest of the world is even more sweeter off the forums. The difference with the forums is that people actually take the time to listen (read) what you are saying. Some give it actual thought and reply with substance, and some are just not at that level yet, or never will be idk.
It really is sad that people don't except who they are, I"m and asshole and I love being one, strive to be the greatest asshole their ever was.
If a things worth doing, it's worth doing right!
P.S. Has SR increased you activity on mainstream social networks?
I have every intention of dying a drug using addict. I have ZERO intention of allowing that to compromise my integrity or my financial comfort to an unmanageable degree: I have to maintain a respectable image or I'll never get another job offer again.
As for friends... I lost my friends quite a few years ago, actually. Even before the drugs (I mean about 15 years ago): major depressive episodes are a bummer to be around, and mine were recurring for a number of years. I also distanced myself from them out of preference because of that, then more once I started using. It's hard to feel a sense of companionship with somebody when you're on drugs 24/7 and they're rather opposed to such things as freedom of choice and all that.
As for the drug friends... well, most of them were slinging and I never thought it was worth the risk. They're all either in prison for many years still or clean and living their shiny happy little clean lives. I'm still making the same choice for the same reason as always, still not slinging, still using every day; which is my preference. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this in a melancholy way -- I'm really pretty accustomed to it. I've come to prefer it quite often -- sure friends are nice sometimes, but they're always fucking calling and pestering and wanting to chat when I'm busy or something. What the fuck do you say to a person who's never done more than drink when you're spun out after 3 days and just need to drop like a ton of bricks, not deal with some asshole asking why you haven't returned his call from the other day.
I've got nothing in common with those people. Which is fine, I just... don't want to be their friend, ya know. To be blunt, I tend to find most people pretty irritating when I just want to tweak and work on my programs or learn new things for more than half the day. Every fucking day.
And no, I still have no use whatsoever for Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or whatever else is coming out tomorrow that's going to be oh-so-popular. It's only these forums and the SR IRC that managed to snag me in their net. I'm pretty introverted, even online. I guess that's why I post so fucking much: don't really watch TV, don't really talk to anybody socially... gotta spew words at somebody somewhere I suppose. ::)
P.S. - don't think I'm well composed and always on the ball or anything, that's not what I mean. My place is a fucking mess. I rarely have clean dishes to eat off of. I forget to pay bills. I say "fuck it," way more often than I should. I am not a healthy person by any means... and I think it's fucking obvious as Hell that I'm on meth if you just look at me. But fortunately, most people have no clue what that actually looks like unless you're a hobo sleeping on the streets. Don't mean to make anyone feel bad. I fail and fuck up just as much as anybody, heh.
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About the only time I haven't been addicted to the forums is when I've become disgusted with my own drug use, and thereby disgusted by (largely) drug talk. But that's on me, and rare.
I get the honesty thing, and it's a big part of why I like to post as well as read here, because I can be 100% myself instead of whatever percent the societally acceptable bits add up to.
I find the friend thing tough for other reasons but what I *really* find difficult is trying to find and keep relationships when your life has a little-understood drug component. I can't "come out of the closet", drug-wise, so that means starting from a position of dishonesty toward people until I (think I) have them sussed out. Which isn't a great way to start a relationship.
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Anybody who's read my posts knows me better than anyone who actually sees my face when I'm talking to them.
Damn, this is so true. There's a whole aspect of my life that only this community knows about, yet nobody here knows my name.
That's the liberating thing about anonymity, I guess.
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i really did sit here on the forums in the dark all night because my light died and the only thing i could see was my keyboard. granted there are other sites and stuff out there but nothing compares to the inane and repetitive shite that gets posted on here. i know it's bad for me but i just can't quit!
I wouldn't say its bad for you, just another thing that needs proper dosing!
hahaha :D i lack the necessary self control, i should never have allowed myself access in the first place!
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That's awesome man. I have a similar story. Recently I have been just as honest in real life about everything as I am on the forums. Brutally honest, no sugar coating whatsoever. That saying that "The Truth Hurts", I have basically proven that without a doubt to myself recently. Most people cannot take it and lash out violently when they receive it. I have had to be very careful with my mouth, It's very dangerous. I have completely distanced myself from the bullshit and the lies the rest of the world tells themselves. I have lost a couple friends along this journey, but have gained better ones. I don't know your situation self but the being honest with yourself and the rest of the world is even more sweeter off the forums. The difference with the forums is that people actually take the time to listen (read) what you are saying. Some give it actual thought and reply with substance, and some are just not at that level yet, or never will be idk.
It really is sad that people don't except who they are, I"m and asshole and I love being one, strive to be the greatest asshole their ever was.
If a things worth doing, it's worth doing right!
P.S. Has SR increased you activity on mainstream social networks?
I have every intention of dying a drug using addict. I have ZERO intention of allowing that to compromise my integrity or my financial comfort to an unmanageable degree: I have to maintain a respectable image or I'll never get another job offer again.
As for friends... I lost my friends quite a few years ago, actually. Even before the drugs (I mean about 15 years ago): major depressive episodes are a bummer to be around, and mine were recurring for a number of years. I also distanced myself from them out of preference because of that, then more once I started using. It's hard to feel a sense of companionship with somebody when you're on drugs 24/7 and they're rather opposed to such things as freedom of choice and all that.
As for the drug friends... well, most of them were slinging and I never thought it was worth the risk. They're all either in prison for many years still or clean and living their shiny happy little clean lives. I'm still making the same choice for the same reason as always, still not slinging, still using every day; which is my preference. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this in a melancholy way -- I'm really pretty accustomed to it. I've come to prefer it quite often -- sure friends are nice sometimes, but they're always fucking calling and pestering and wanting to chat when I'm busy or something. What the fuck do you say to a person who's never done more than drink when you're spun out after 3 days and just need to drop like a ton of bricks, not deal with some asshole asking why you haven't returned his call from the other day.
I've got nothing in common with those people. Which is fine, I just... don't want to be their friend, ya know. To be blunt, I tend to find most people pretty irritating when I just want to tweak and work on my programs or learn new things for more than half the day. Every fucking day.
And no, I still have no use whatsoever for Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or whatever else is coming out tomorrow that's going to be oh-so-popular. It's only these forums and the SR IRC that managed to snag me in their net. I'm pretty introverted, even online. I guess that's why I post so fucking much: don't really watch TV, don't really talk to anybody socially... gotta spew words at somebody somewhere I suppose. ::)
P.S. - don't think I'm well composed and always on the ball or anything, that's not what I mean. My place is a fucking mess. I rarely have clean dishes to eat off of. I forget to pay bills. I say "fuck it," way more often than I should. I am not a healthy person by any means... and I think it's fucking obvious as Hell that I'm on meth if you just look at me. But fortunately, most people have no clue what that actually looks like unless you're a hobo sleeping on the streets. Don't mean to make anyone feel bad. I fail and fuck up just as much as anybody, heh.
You have an outlet here on the forums, and its in my opinion always good to blow off some steam. I'm with you on many levels, that's why I am here!
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I'm so addicted to SR man. It's the fucking best.
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Glad we could all come together for SR'ic anonymous!
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That's awesome man. I have a similar story. Recently I have been just as honest in real life about everything as I am on the forums. Brutally honest, no sugar coating whatsoever. That saying that "The Truth Hurts", I have basically proven that without a doubt to myself recently. Most people cannot take it and lash out violently when they receive it. I have had to be very careful with my mouth, It's very dangerous. I have completely distanced myself from the bullshit and the lies the rest of the world tells themselves. I have lost a couple friends along this journey, but have gained better ones. I don't know your situation self but the being honest with yourself and the rest of the world is even more sweeter off the forums. The difference with the forums is that people actually take the time to listen (read) what you are saying. Some give it actual thought and reply with substance, and some are just not at that level yet, or never will be idk.
It really is sad that people don't except who they are, I"m and asshole and I love being one, strive to be the greatest asshole their ever was.
If a things worth doing, it's worth doing right!
P.S. Has SR increased you activity on mainstream social networks?
I have every intention of dying a drug using addict. I have ZERO intention of allowing that to compromise my integrity or my financial comfort to an unmanageable degree: I have to maintain a respectable image or I'll never get another job offer again.
As for friends... I lost my friends quite a few years ago, actually. Even before the drugs (I mean about 15 years ago): major depressive episodes are a bummer to be around, and mine were recurring for a number of years. I also distanced myself from them out of preference because of that, then more once I started using. It's hard to feel a sense of companionship with somebody when you're on drugs 24/7 and they're rather opposed to such things as freedom of choice and all that.
As for the drug friends... well, most of them were slinging and I never thought it was worth the risk. They're all either in prison for many years still or clean and living their shiny happy little clean lives. I'm still making the same choice for the same reason as always, still not slinging, still using every day; which is my preference. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying this in a melancholy way -- I'm really pretty accustomed to it. I've come to prefer it quite often -- sure friends are nice sometimes, but they're always fucking calling and pestering and wanting to chat when I'm busy or something. What the fuck do you say to a person who's never done more than drink when you're spun out after 3 days and just need to drop like a ton of bricks, not deal with some asshole asking why you haven't returned his call from the other day.
I've got nothing in common with those people. Which is fine, I just... don't want to be their friend, ya know. To be blunt, I tend to find most people pretty irritating when I just want to tweak and work on my programs or learn new things for more than half the day. Every fucking day.
And no, I still have no use whatsoever for Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or whatever else is coming out tomorrow that's going to be oh-so-popular. It's only these forums and the SR IRC that managed to snag me in their net. I'm pretty introverted, even online. I guess that's why I post so fucking much: don't really watch TV, don't really talk to anybody socially... gotta spew words at somebody somewhere I suppose. ::)
P.S. - don't think I'm well composed and always on the ball or anything, that's not what I mean. My place is a fucking mess. I rarely have clean dishes to eat off of. I forget to pay bills. I say "fuck it," way more often than I should. I am not a healthy person by any means... and I think it's fucking obvious as Hell that I'm on meth if you just look at me. But fortunately, most people have no clue what that actually looks like unless you're a hobo sleeping on the streets. Don't mean to make anyone feel bad. I fail and fuck up just as much as anybody, heh.
Ur a boss i don't care what the hobo says. i can level with you on a lot of things.